Thursday, January 8, 2015

You Were Chosen

As mothers, we are always second guessing ourselves.  Did I make the right decision?  Am I guiding them in the right direction?  Am I feeding them well?  Nurturing their minds and their bodies and their souls?  There are seasons when we feel sure and confident and others when the slightest provocation can lead to self doubt.  Yesterday, I was stuck in the self doubt stage and I found myself in prayer.

My baby girl had woken up at 5:15 am and I let my mind wander as we played by the dim light of the rising sun.  I had spent an hour with my pediatrician the day before talking about the best way to raise a well balanced child.  I had reached out to her for advice because she seems to truly understand and love my children.  She has raised three great kids and I felt drawn to her as a mentor.  

She is incredibly kind and had so much wisdom to share.  She had told me that my children will naturally push themselves academically.  They will hunger for learning.  My job will be to help them learn to prioritize and focus on their school work.  She also shared that kids that are very bright often put a great amount of pressure on themselves.  (I definitely see that every day!) They want to be the best.  They want to succeed.  They do not need us to add to that pressure.  My job, instead, will be to build their character.  My job will be to keep buillding their emotional intelligence so that they can manage their over active minds.  As I watched my baby attempt to put the circle puzzle piece into her wooden puzzle, I started to feel the weight of that responsibility.  

Prioritize, focus, build their character, teach them to be emotionally in touch and equipt, embrace their creativity...Could I do all of that in a homeschooling environment or should I send them to the "experts" at school?  The pediatrician talked of her journey trying to find the right schools for her children and I wasn't sure I was up for that.  I opened up my Guidepost devotional and found a story of a mother struggling with the decision to continue homeschooling or send her children to school.  God was listening to me.  He was ready to help me.  The advice?  Take one day at a time.  Give everything you have to that day and the answers will unfold. 

A few hours later, a friend and fellow homeschooling mom called.  I shared my doubts with her.  "Look," she began in her straight-forward manner.  "I'm no expert, but I do know one thing.  God chose YOU to be their mother.  He hand-picked you because you have everything it takes to give these kids whatever it is that they need.  If your son puts that much pressure on himself, maybe it's your job to help him stay calm.  Maybe it's your job to let him know it's more about his character than his achievements.  You can do this.  You are doing this already."

I felt the doubts slipping from my heart and tears welled in my eyes.  "You have been my answered prayer today.  That was exactly what I needed to hear," I told her.  But God wasn't done quite yet.

I received a text from my pediatrician with a loving and encouraging note a few hours later.  She finished with this quote from Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, "It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."  I am framing it and putting it in the school room as a daily reminder of what really matters.  Our choices matter far more than our abilities.

Are you doubting yourself as a parent today?  Remember that He chose you for a reason.  You have everything it takes.


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