Friday, October 5, 2012

Burned Out



Today, I have a sitter.  I have decided that I will not spend the day buying diapers at Target, doing laundry or returning overdue library books.  Today I will only do things for myself.  What made me decide to do this?  I am burned out.

I know when this is coming.  I start feeling impatient with my kids, I linger while I get ready just to get a bit more time by myself and I start to think my incredibly helpful husband isn't lifting a finger for ME.  Poor, poor me.  The one who does everything for this family.  I feel exhausted even thinking about putting away the dishes because it seems like one more thing standing between me and my free time.  And yet, when I get free time, I use it to take care of the family.  I tell myself it is because, "It's so much easier without the kids," but the truth is that I am addicted to care taking.  Once I am on that treadmill, I get comfortable with the pace and it's so difficult to jump off.  


Careaholics are no different than workaholics.  We justify our purpose a bit differently.  It sounds much more altruistic to say we are giving up ourselves for our families.  But the truth is that we diminish our value to our families when we stop taking care of ourselves.


Today I will not be answering my cell phone because I will be walking through the state park watching birds, butterflies and alligators.  I may go from the wilderness to the bookstore to feed my soul or the beach could call my name.  I won't make plans because I am taking this day as it comes.  Then I will come home to my family as a mother rather than a martyr.

How do you give yourself a break when you start to feel crazy?

2 comments:

  1. I hope you had a great day! I have two boys and I completely understand about needing a break every once in a while. I saw your post on bloggy moms and following you by email now. I look forward to your future posts!

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  2. Thank you so much! It was everything I needed to be sane again. I will check out your blog as well. Thanks for the comment!

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